straight in the face

Reality hurts
Reality aches
Reality makes you face decisions and choices
Situations that are difficult, roads you can't bear
To follow.

Reality is real.
Fantasy is an escape, a pleasant trip
Down a road paved with gold
Where it never rains
No one ever cries
Hearts never break.

Find your reality
Choose what you need to be real
And make it real.
Life shouldn't ache all the time
Your mistakes become the fabric of
Who  you are
But not the noose on which you must
Continue to hang
Not the whip
With which you must be beaten.

Your life has hit a dip
A low dark point
Tears are shed by many
Hearts ache, break, are crushed.
Yours included.
Do not forget that.
Your feelings are no less important
Than those of the people you
Care for, the people you may have hurt.
You can regret what you did
How you behaved
What you said.
But none of that negates
Your own broken heart.

Your reality is this
It's here
You have decisions to make
Paralysis gets you nowhere
Quickly.

Choose a direction and
Commit to it
Fully.
Remove the guilt
And remember this.

This life is all you have
At the end of your day
You will only have you
Who you are, what you've done
Who you've brought with you
In this journey.

Forgive yourself
The guilt is there and it will never leave
Until you ask for forgiveness
From those you hurt
And yourself.

But that guilt cannot be
The impetus for your future actions.
Look at the why.
Why you did what you did.
What you hoped for
What you wanted
What you yearned for.

Find it.
This is the only life you have.
Running down this road is lonely enough.
Do not purposely choose to keep it
A dark and isolating place
Simply because that feels "right" or "best".