I have 3 digital cameras. One has been comandeered by G. One is loaded with sand but is pocket-sized - so it's the one that's always in my purse or travel bag. The last one is the nicest - but they are all point and shoot. I want an SLR. I want to tap my Dad's brain for ways to take these pics, adjust my lenses, and develop my pics. I want to be able to take my (some say good) eye and my camera and bring that beauty and amazement to life. I love taking pictures of people but I also love architecture.
The SLR is on my list - it's BEEN on my list but I just can't pull the trigger.
Here's the weird thing about me. I was a math major in college with a double-quasi minor in Spanish and comp sci. Yeah - I'm a TOTAL nerd. A science nerd at that. I have an organized, logical brain.
I remember this logical mind being a part of every facet of my life from young childhood.
And yet...somewhere buried inside this ridiculously concrete brain is a creative side - thus making me a confused, tortured, contradiction.
I saw glimpses of that creativity from a young age. I picked up a flute at 8 and, much to the chagrin of my instructor, put it together, made a sound, and started playing. Reading music was easy and I could *feel* it, which is good since I'm deaf as a doornail in 1 ear. (This makes for an interesting off-pitch problem without an electronic tuner. Or someone without a deaf ear. ;-) )
I also used to see concrete (oh the irony) examples of this when I'd take personality tests. You know the 1 with the 4 - concrete sequential, abstract sequential, concrete random, abstract random? Yeah...you'd think I'd be in the farthest corner of concrete sequential...or not....somehow I was straddling this weird area around concrete sequential and random, yet hovering near abstract sequential as well. Ah yea - a CONTRADICTION if there ever were one.
But now that I'm an adult - despite being this logical, ridiculously OCD person...forget it. I'm like the absent-minded professor with some craziness thrown in for good measure. I love creating things - knitting, sewing, crafting in some way. I especially love to quilt. Oh please - shocking right? Math and creativity. There is this little part of me that would happily give up my dorky systems analyst job right now if I thought there was any freakin' way I could make some sort of reasonable living making quilts.
The sad thing is that I have grown accustomed to the reasonably decent salary that my dorky math nerd job cranks out. Oops.
So here I stand - a somehow slightly tortured pragmatist, who will squeeze in her creativity here and there for now, thereby keeping in touch with it, while I churn my way through the normalcy of my life and my big old nerd job - with some Mommying in there for good measure of course.
It seems like a reasonable compromise for now. But it makes me yearn for a time where I have the time - the time to be both of me.
In the meantime - a few of my more recent "pieces" and pics.
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