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Finally an evening where I can sort of catch my breath.

I've said it several times in the last 6 weeks, but I have no idea how people with multiple children do it.  I have ONE kid.  Granted - he's spoiled.  We let him do multiple activities and one of us is always with him at said activities.  BUT - it's exhausting.  Hubby has a bunch of his own activities - not the least of which is his endless working out, plus poker and Risk (don't ask), etc. etc.

I'm tired.  I have not been feeling that great over the last couple of weeks - I'm currently hoarse as heck, have a nasty hacking dry cough, and a TMJ flare which I think may land me in my doctor's office soon.  Add in the endless running and PHEW.  Not that I'm complaining - I'm not.  As I actually reminded myself - out loud - as I plunked myself into my car on my way home from work today, I'm lucky.  I'm blessed.  I have a good job and a healthy family.

So why am I - in addition to being exhausted - feeling like something is missing?  I hate this.  I have felt this way on and off for a long time, but lately it's been pretty bad.  It's making me insane.

My husband thinks I am so pessimistic I can't see what I have.  And maybe he's right.

But maybe he isn't.  There's something inside of me that's restless and wondering what I'm missing.  I have yet to be able to put my finger on it;.  Maybe this is what a midlife crisis is?

In the meantime, this feeling lingers here and there.  How I have time to even notice it most of the time is beyond me. 

I think I'll bring this into my diary at this point, just because I feel like this blog entry sucks and is disjointed.

On a happier note, we recently had my sister's bridal shower.  One of the things we did for her was make her a friendship wreath.  My mom found the idea in a Victorian crafts book.  I love the idea - I want to make a ribbon wreath like this for myself...eventually...