If only I could find a way to quilt and knit for profit - I'd be so THERE - at least part time. Sadly, my contradictory extroverted introvert personality would still crave an office-y type job...complete with nerdiness. But alas, I'm never going to be able to flex my creative juices sufficiently to pay my bills, so I will plod along in my chaotic and nerdy and ultimately stress-inducing yet amazingly good office job and try to squeeze my "artistic" (is quilting really artistic?!?!) endeavors in between soccer games and swim lessons and work and my occasional foray into actually exercising.
I have two projects going right now...and at least one or two more I'd like to have going. I am working on the sock - again. I wound up ripping the first one apart - too many dropped and misaligned stitches and the needs were too friggin small! - and started a new one. So far, it's ok - I knitted some of it during a soccer practice and got distracted, so I dropped a stitch - and of course I noticed it several rows later. It's sort of fixed - good enough for a few try - but it did result in a slightly clumsy-looking cuff. I hope sock #2 will be less sloppy. The OCD in me really REALLY wants to start over...in fact, as I type this, it's a very strong likelihood that I will. Geez.
I'm also working through the scrapbook from our last Disney trip. I really need to finish it. Thankfully, I map things out ahead of time, which is the only reason why I got the days in the right order (like I can remember November now?!?!) - so I know I have 5 pages left to complete. I want it done by the time we go on our first summer vacation. Ah...goals....
So we're still in the thick of the end-of-the-school-year chaos. 7 days left of school. G's original teacher is back starting tomorrow, and he's over the moon with excitement. She had a baby at the beginning of April and is returning from maternity leave. He had a bit of a rough time with the permanent sub (poor woman, he certainly didn't make her life easy) - it evened out the last few weeks but I'm happy for him that he has Mrs R back for the end of the year. He changes schools for 3rd grade and, after his orientation last week, he admits to being a bit nervous. It's so strange to hear my socially outgoing, generally overconfident child express nervousness. Poor kid.
I'm glad the school year is almost over. This week is busy - again. I was feeling like the crappiest mother this weekend. I've known about the "2nd grade celebration" now for about a week or two, but I haven't been able to track down any details. There's nothing on the school website, there's nothing that's come home (unless I missed it but I do try to read all of the paperwork carefully). I feel a huge cad. Needless to say, I talked to the mom of one of G's classmates tonight (thank you Facebook) and found out that it's not a graduation at all! SHEESH! Apparently there's been nothing that's come home about it and everyone is scrambling. PEOPLE! Most parents WORK! If you want us at school during the day - some NOTICE would be nice. ARGH!!!
So at least now I can have a conversation with G about this tomorrow. I think he thought I was being a spaz because I didn't know what the hell was going on. Again, I am soooooo OCD - I usually am on my A game when it comes to this stuff. Crap, I have ONE kid, I need to keep it together!
My last little rambling for the evening...my sister's residency graduation was Friday night. Her friend L did a beautiful job introducing her - brought us all to tears! I can't believe she's actually a full-on doctor, now. Amazing. I also can't believe she's getting married.
I'm very excited for her. And very jealous. For so many reasons. Because (hopefully) her wedding will be beautiful and suffer no tragedies. Because she's with a guy who loves her to pieces and who she loves, and they have everything ahead of them. Because I wish I felt that way again.
I'm being a bit dramatic and a bit girlie - but it's true. I get these pangs of jealousy. I know that I'm being unrealistic and that it won't be sunshine and roses for them forever, either - but some of the stuff her fiance does - well, Hubby never did, and I wished he would have. SIGH. We've been together for so long...I probably don't remember half of how he "hooked" me anymore.
^^^ This is a little glimpse into probably the biggest cause of the anxiety I sometimes talk about. Right now, it's all I'm going to say. I have to be a bit careful what I say here - hence the private journal...where I'm headed now I think.
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