some days just...

...stink.

Today was not a great day. I was hoping it would be an improvement over yesterday, but it was worse.

HOWEVER - One of the things I vowed I'd start doing - not a New Year's resolution per se because I think those are too easy to break - this year is take charge.

So I'm going to. One big point of frustration today was work. There are changes coming. We don't know exactly what they are, but we know they are on their way. I have been waiting patiently for some sort of upward movement since it was promised to me last February. It hasn't happened. No more waiting. It's time to start asking questions and - as hard as it is for me - and it's DIFFICULT - advocate for myself.

I am making an appointment to do that right now.

I have a lot of other crap going on in my life right now that I can't control. At all. I just have to take that day by day and see what happens. It's agonizing for a control freak.

But this - I have some way to at least try to steer my own boat. I can't let it just drift or it will crash.

No exercising today. Hubby has both his dodgeball league game (won) and basketball league game (playing in about 1/2 hr) tonight.

I had G - I don't typically pick him up. That's always a nice change of pace. He had a good day at school AND his aftercare director made it a point to tell me he's had a great week (HOORAY). I am proud of him - that's not easy for him! We had good conversations about some bullying that's happening at school - only my child would take on a gang of 6 kids, what is he thinking?? We hung out, ate some supper, and homework.

Ok - G is a smart kid (yes I am a proud Mom!). He gets harder spelling words most weeks. Two of his words this week - "trough" and "photographed". WOW! Those are hard for adults let alone a second-grader.

The evening was ok - hubby's 45 min stop-in didn't go all that well but you know, my mood didn't help things.

Oh well, tomorrow is Friday. Another of my goals - really DO try to take things day-by-day. So my effort for tomorrow will to be to try not to relive today, and make it a better day.

We'll see. The scarf I am knitting awaits for now.