here I am

You asked me
What I wanted
What I felt
Who I was
And where that fit.

At first
I didn't think I could
go down that road
open up
share myself.

My head screamed
CAREFUL
Steer clear
Shelter yourself
It's just too dangerous
There's too much potential
for pain
and confusion.

Good girl
Good choices
Straight line
Right path

Not this time

Now here I am
And there you are
And in between
An abyss of hurt
and sadness
of regret
and wishes
and taunting dreams.

Here I am.
The person I was
yesterday
Is the person who sits here
Waiting
Wondering
Uncertain.

Here I am.
I'm still me.
That doesn't stop
Nor does anything else
just because
of one small moment in time.

Here I am.
Find me.
I'm not gone
And maybe
I'm not that bad.
Maybe, just maybe
All those things you asked
All those things you thought
All those things
Are really who I am.