uninspired

It's too cold out.
It's going to be snowy and icy tomorrow, which means that, undoubtedly, I'll be up at 5, waiting to see what our school district decided to do, and then spending the next 2 hours fretting over the logistical nightmare that is dealing with winter weather.  To further complicate things, I have a training class, on line, from 10-2 tomorrow.  Where's the written training material that I need for the class?  On my desk.  At work.  Arght.

G and I had a nice very low-key day relaxing today, as Hubby was at work, and let still I am feeling like I didn't do enough with him.  I put so much pressure on myself to be this ideal mother and, no matter what I do, I have a tendency to view myself as falling short.  I don't know why - G proudly told his father "we did pretty much nothing today!" and didn't seem unhappy about it, but I still feel like I let him down.

The fact that I'm feeling lazy because really, I'm sad (very sad) and probably depressed - and I just didn't want to do much.  I know this - hence the guilt.

So yeah, I'm not exactly inspired to write anything awe-inspiring, because right now, I think I'm having a hard time even being mediocre.